Oh boy, does writing this scare the crap out of me? Heck, yeah! I'm usually not one to lay it all out on the table, and prefer to stay in my corner quietly watching. But you know what? The end of the world didn't come and this is a new year. So I promised myself I'd try something new. Go ahead, Tasha, don't be shy and say what you think. After all, what's the worst that can happen? Right?
After publishing Guardians of the Grimoire in 2011, I can't believe I finally finished the first draft of book 2 in the series entitled Defenders of the Grimoire a.k.a. DOTG. My journey into self-publishing has been filled with ups and downs. I've had eye-opening moments, some ah-ha! moments, and some head banging moments too. In the past twelve months I have learned not to be afraid of CSS coding, which allowed me to personalize my blog. Hey, for a gal who had never been on any of the social media networking sites and who could barely understand what a computer could do, I think I've done pretty well. I've succeeded in taking something I know nothing about and turning it into something I can now use to my advantage.
I like to say that I've been developing my business plan over the course of the past year. Now, that I'm a self-published author, what are my goals? In a month from now? In a year from now? In five and ten years from now? I like to plan ahead and if roadblocks come up on my set journey, I feel comfortable enough to say, "Okay, this is only a temporary setback." Then I plow ahead.
The key to all of this is lots of research, and research takes time. Never mind that writing a book such as the Grimoire Trilogy also warrants research of its own. So, I've been reading and learning and slowly implementing all that I acquire. To be honest, I felt bad that I had not yet published book 2 of my series. It is now more than a year later since book 1 came out, and I've been haranguing myself for not writing book 2 yet. Then my subconscious kicks in and tells me it's not like I've been sitting on my butt all day doing nothing. In fact, the bags under my eyes can testify to that, but I have to admit that there has to be passion burning within me if I'm willing to get up at 5am for something that I'm not reaping benefits from...yet.
Today, though, I can smile again, because draft one of DOTG is finally finished. Some of you already know this about me, but I write the first draft by hand. I feel that I have more freedom this way to develop my ideas and I am able to spread out before me the pages that I need to see, in order for my ideas to stay consistent. What I have discovered while writing DOTG is that I didn't need to fully develop each and every scene, because I know that when I'm going to type it up, I'll already be editing those scenes. I'm hoping that by book 3 of the series I won't have to write by hand and go straight to a Word document.
I've been beating myself down a lot lately, because I didn't feel like I was accomplishing anything, but as my kids say, "Mom, you've been working your butt off ever since you've discovered your love of writing." That was four years ago. I guess if I'm willing to spend sixty hours a week on becoming a self-published author and get up at 5am, while seeing only a few coins in return, then I guess I've got passion for what I do and I refuse to give up on it. Writing is my dream. Writing is my passion. Writing is my job. I am an author. And proud to be one.